[Epistemic status: thinking aloud]
It seems like my Focusing practice is bottlenecked on two things:
- I still sometimes have the problem of noticing an aversion, but deflecting from it. It is not automatic to transition into doing Focusing, especially when I’m anxious. Instead, I deflect into pacifyer / distraction behaviors (like watching youtube or what not).
- Sometimes, I just can’t seem to get a handle on what’s wrong. I can’t make progress, and the thing just sits in me, stagnant, sometimes for days, locking up my energies and preventing me from flowing.
I think I should focus on problem 2. If that problem were perfectly solved, problem 1, might or might not resolve itself.
So, what could I do to make focusing work better for me, so that I can more reliably get a foothold?
- This might mean that I just need to go back to the basics: do the actual six steps of Gendlin’s Focusing, and see how that works.
- Maybe I can do binary search? Start broad and break down the universe of discourse into a taxonomy: “Is this about work?”, “Is it about something other than work?”, If it’s about not-work “Is it about my romantic life?”
- Instead of Focusing, try IBR? This has a different rhythm, and sometimes has helped me get unstuck.
- If I can get any handle on it at all, I could try exploring gradients: taking the imagined situation and varying attributes of it, one at a time, and seeing if those variations feel better or worse, and use that feedback to triangulate to the exact thing that is bothering me.
- I should maybe read this book, which I do own.
- Maybe just hold my attention at the felt sense for minutes at a time?
- Maybe I should try speaking from the felt sense or “acting it” out?
- I think (in addition to other things on this list), that I have to remember that I have been mistaken about what the felt sense is concerned with before, and be less apt assume that I know what the bothersome thing is, when that theory is not getting feedback from the felt sense.
- I should try taking the felt sense out of my body so that I can talk with it?
- Thank acknowledge that I don’t know what the felt sense is doing yet, and thank it for looking out for me.
Do other people have other ideas?
Oh. Also, I think that part of the art of solving problem 1, might be learning to notice the slight and subtle urges to distract myself, before they give rise to action.
[Interestingly, the thing that is currently stuck in me feels slightly improved, after writing this.]